Hard

All I ever wanted was to love andi someone to love me. Someone to respect an listen to me. Someone who would admit when he is at fault. Someone who is always there to support me but will help me when I'm wrong, someone who has no secrets and secret agendas. Till this day I wear a mask, but behind that is the sadness that I fight each day. My past relationships made me hate love. Til this day I don't believe is such thing. I've given my heart and soul to someone three times and three times I had it spit on. This will be the last time ill waste my last tears and the last time I open my heart. Tonight I will cry last tears and be in my own, its just me now.